And it continues:

We made an appointment to have Bailey put to sleep yesterday and a hour before, I chickened out. I cannot do it. We gave ourselves a new deadline of Wednesday. I know I am being selfish and I am sorry for that. I even apologized to her. She is so sick.

I am to the point now though, I am ready for it all to be over. We have been on such a roller coaster ride the past week with her. It is so draining and Dillon is looking at us like "what the heck is going on?"

You might pray that we have the strength to do what we need to do. (Yes, I am aware that this is a cat, but you have to understand everything behind it - see previous post.)