Why am I doing this?

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Since I starting to write this with a bad attitude, I have decided to stop. I did decide to leave this non-sense up though to remind me that if I spew it into the world, it will come back to me. Today, I am choosing to keep my mouth shut! Take advantage people - that does not happen very often!

Friday, April 25, 2008

Ok, here goes:

I have kept my mouth shut about this issue till now. Actually, I did discuss with one co-worker. I was listening to Man Cow this morning and he was talking about the raid on the compound in Texas. Let start by saying, Man Cow has some views that I do not agree with. In fact, I am usually 100% with him or 100% against him on any given issue. I hardly ever ride the fence on the issues he brings up.

I think that the raid on the compound in Texas is total crap. Stop now - I am not saying that children, especially young girls, should be abused by older men - leave that point out of it right now. I am speaking more the aspect of the fact the govt decided they were doing something wrong and stormed in and took babies and young children away from their mothers. I would die if someone took my child away from me just because they did not agree with the way I lived, especially with my religious views. I thought this was America? I can also say that I never would have thought about it this way until I had a child.

Man Cow was talking about how they go after groups like this, yet they leave other - more radical religious groups alone. For example - Louis Farrakan and his church. Is the govt just more scared of groups like this because they are not peaceful? (I know, I answered my own question.)

Maybe I am way off base on my views, but guess what - they are my views. I am really growing tired of this attitude of it is ok for some, but others when it comes to religious freedom and other hot topics like this. Who am I to say that a way a person lives and practices religion is not right? Not my job. If I think it is wrong, I don't practice it or raise my child that way! If I am really against what the way they live, I do not associate with them.

Ok, enough anger for today - IT IS FRIDAY!!!

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

Feeling better!

I am feeling a TON better. Always good to keep the moto in your head - This to shall pass!!

I am pretty sure this is inside of me!! :-)

Happy Hump Day!

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Third time is a Charm!

The flu bug has hit our house again - actually the third time since February! I got sick yesterday morning and Jason came home. He got it later in the day. We are quite a pair. Dillon, so far, has not gotten it. We'll see about that. So now, we are taking turns sleeping and hanging out with Dillon. This is one of the many things that sucks about not living near your relatives! It is up to Jason and I to keep up with Dillon.

Hopefully we will be better by tomorrow.

Monday, April 21, 2008

We had kind of a hectic weekend, but nothing much got accomplished.

Thursday night, my old friend from KC, Bonnie came in to see her brother. She met us for a quick dinner at El Jimador. Of course Dillon was his normal cherry self!

Friday brought a wonderfully raining day. We went to a BBQ at Ethan's house and we were not the only ones there with a child! It was so nice to see everyone.

Saturday was another icky day. There was a small break in the rain, so we headed out to Ashland for their annual garage sales. I found a few things, nothing monumental! Later that afternoon, I had a work event at Peace Park - it was FREEZING!! Jason, Dillon and I hung out the rest of the night and ate pizza.

Sunday brought church, the grocery store, Jason a ride, playing outside, visiting Curt at Flat Branch while he passing through, dinner and more playing outside!

After dinner last night, we were outside with the neighbors. Dillon crashed his tricycle a few times. Not bad but there was some blood. Jason sat outside and got more red as the minutes ticked on. He got sunburned on his ride. We finally got Dillon in the bath and I found a tick on him! Yuck, yuck, yuck! It was just a little seed tick, but still - YUCK! Anyway, Jason saved the day and got it out.

Then on to bed. Dillon was up all night. I coughed all night. Jason was ostracized to the up stairs to attempt to sleep, but could not because of his burning skin. Fun, fun. Man is this going to be a long day.

Thursday, April 17, 2008


Dillon loves his tricycle. He always wants Daddy to ride bikes in the driveway with him! It is sweet. Don't let him fool you right now - he is no where near sweet!

Friday, April 11, 2008

A little insight to me

Sometimes on my drive home, I do not even turn on the radio. I just sit there in silence and think. I never would have done this when I was younger. Over the past few weeks, I have realized how much I have matured in the past 10 years. This is not a negative thing. In fact, I really - at times- feel very comfortable in my skin and in my life. Not to say that I never get anxious, worried, etc. But I really feel I spend a lot less time worrying about the things I cannot control. I am very into to spending time in the moment, especially with my boys - the important people.

One thing that makes me anxious from time to time is I always feel like there is something bigger waiting out there for me and my family. I have this burning in my soul that drives me. I am not very patient - even after having a kid! Waiting for that and trying to find it is sometimes the hardest part.

I am coming to the end of my supervision for my license. Very soon I will officially be a therapist. The exciting part is, it will be before Brodie is born if everything goes as planned. I am excited to have a baby and enjoy my family without having to worry about finishing that. In a way, I feel Dillon was robbed a little because of that. Don't get me wrong - when I was gone, he was with his Dad, but still. I hated every time I left. Why did I do it? I am not one of those people that is very career driven. I had just already put so much time and money into it, I could not let it go. I don't think he is scared in any way, but I obviously have some guilt still. Such is life. My boys are the greatest thing in my life.

So, stopping there I will leave you with something I have know for a while now...

I am one of the most complex people I have ever met!!

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Finally, introducing...our new furniture!!

Here it is. I love it! I know, it looks like a HUGE bed - hince why I love it.

Tuesday, April 08, 2008

Pesky Cough

I have this pesky little cough. It is a dry, tickling feeling and I cannot help but cough. It stinks. Everyone in our family has it. I will just say that coughing uncontrollably and being pregnant is not a good combination. Can you say pee your pants? If you have had a baby you know. If not, you will one day.

My belly button is getting ready to pop out. It did not do that with Dillon. It already pops out when I cough. I would be great fun at a party! :-)

Just thought I would give you all some great visual images for the night - enjoy!!

Sunday, April 06, 2008

Boring Weekend

Jason left early Saturday morning to go to a bike race in Arkansas. I have never been a bike racer widow, so this was new for me. I have always gone to races with Jason, but now that Dillon is here, that is not always the easiest.

My mom came down to hang out with Dillon and me while he was gone. We were busy, but got a lot of nothing done. Dillon acted terrible the entire weekend. It was very weird. I don't know, maybe he missed his Dad. Anyway, I will be happy to have Jason back home and I know I could NEVER be a single parent. Those people should get awards!!

Dillon got a bunch of new outside toys courtesy of garage sales on Saturday. He got a killer tricycle and can actually ride it pretty well. It is an old school, red metal one like I had when I was kid. He also got a plastic, cookie monster chair that he LOVES.

I am also not sleeping at night for some reason. I can't quite figure it out, but it is starting to take it's toll. I bet I got 3 hours of sleep last night. I guess I better get used to it. In a few more months, that will be the norm. That my friends is one of the hardest parts of having a new baby - NO SLEEP! No one tells you how much that messes with your head.

Hope everyone had a good weekend!!

Tuesday, April 01, 2008


I know everyone is expecting pictures and I am working on it. I will not forget! :-)

I saw something very cool on the way to work this morning. Along the river bottoms on Highway 63 right before you get on 54 to go into Jeff, there is an old prison on one side and not a whole lot out in the fields. The field was covered with clover this morning, so when you looked across the field it looked purple!! It was so pretty!! I guess all that rain we got was good for something. Now I am ready for my trees to bloom and shade my windows.

Life is Good!!!!!!!!!

We have our new furniture! We had it delivered yesterday afternoon. It is a little slice of heaven. I love it. Jason and I almost slept on it last night.

On another note, Jason and I watched a movie Sunday night. Ok, actually we started to watch the movie Mr Woodcock. Sucked! We did not even finish it. We thought it would be dumb and mindless - you know - toilet humor. It was really bad though.