Why am I doing this?

Friday, September 26, 2008

I have been feeling weird lately. If you read earlier, you know that I have not felt well, but beyond that, I have just felt weird. Every now and again I get the feeling that there is something big waiting on the horizon for me. I am kind of getting that feeling again. The problem is I cannot ever tap into it to find out what it is. Does this mean I am not in tune with myself? Or am I full of crap and there is nothing? I feel like I am standing on the edge getting ready to jump, but I never do. I really want to jump, but I cannot see why I need to jump.

Analyze that!! :-)

Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Daily dose of Brodie

He is starting to like his exersaucer. It buys us some time to cook and eat dinner.
I have not been feeling well lately. I went to the Doctor yesterday and got a whole lot of nothing except a bill! She told me to rest up. Hmmm, people without children are always telling me to rest up. That is nearly impossible. Don't get me wrong, I know what I signed up for, but seriously - great advice, Doc! At one point in the conversation, she actually asked me what I thought it was. Can you believe that?

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

I love this!!!


Please Read all the way to the bottom: If you will take the time to read these. I promise you'll come away with an enlightened perspective. The subjects covered affect us all on a daily basis:

They're written by Andy Rooney , a man who has the gift of saying so much with so few words. Enjoy.......

I've learned.... That the best classroom in the world is at the feet of an elderly person.
I've learned.... That when you're in love, it shows.
I've learned.... That just one person saying to me, 'You've made my day!' makes my day.
I've learned.... That having a child fall asleep in your arms is one of the most peaceful feelings in the world.
I've learned.... That being kind is more important than being right.
I've learned.... That you should never say no to a gift from a child.
I've learned.... That I can always pray for someone when I don't have the strength to help him in some other way.
I've learned.... That no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.
I've learned.... That sometimes all a person needs is a hand to hold and a heart to understand. I've learned.... That simple walks with my father around the block on summer nights when I was a child did wonders for me as an adult.
I've learned.... That life is like a roll of toilet paper. The closer it gets to the end, the faster it goes.
I've learned.... That we should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.
I've learned.... That money doesn't buy class.
I've learned.... That it's those small daily happenings that make life so spectacular.
I've learned... That under every one's hard shell is someone who wants to be appreciated and loved.
I've learned.... That to ignore the facts does not change the facts.
I've learned.... That when you plan to get even with someone, you are only letting that person continue to hurt you.
I've learned.... That love, not time, heals all wounds.
I've learned.... That the easiest way for me to grow as a person is to surround myself with people smarter than I am.
I've learned.... That everyone you meet deserves to be greeted with a smile.
I've learned.... That no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.
I've learned... That life is tough, but I'm tougher.
I've learned.... That opportunities are never lost; someone will take the ones you miss.
I've learned.... That when you harbor bitterness, happiness will dock elsewhere.
I've learned.... That one should keep his words both soft and tender, because tomorrow he may have to eat them.
I've learned.... That a smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks.
I've learned.... That when your newly born grandchild holds your little finger in his little fist, that you're hooked for life.
I've learned.... That everyone wants to live on top of the mountain, but all the happiness and growth occurs while you're climbing it.
I've learned.... That the less time I have to work with, the more things I get done.

Monday, September 22, 2008

Too early to complain?

I am feeling the need to complain, so if you don't want to read it or hear about it - stop now and go to another page. I am tired. Not just tired, REALLY tired. I need a break so bad - a day to myself would be great. I am grouching a lot to my family and that is when I know I need a break. I have so much to do around the house, so much to do at work and some how I need to find time to spend with my family. Oh yeah, and then I need to find time to walk in there or something. I know, I know, I signed up for this by having children.

Brodie is not sleeping through the night anymore. He did for about a week. He is eating like crap. I think he may be cutting a tooth.

I had my parenting questioned by complete strangers over the weekend, but that is another blog. I don't feel like typing.

I got my hair chopped off over the weekend. I don't like it. Now I must suffer for months till it grows. I thought it would be easier, but I cannot get it to do anything.

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Eye Surgery

Dillon had his eye surgery today. Everything went good. The "waking up" part was the hardest. He cried and cried - it ripped my heart out! He is doing a lot better. He came home and took a nap. He is drinking juice and eating crackers. We'll see how the rest of the night goes.

Thanks for all the well wishes/thoughts and prayers!

Monday, September 15, 2008

Gulit Inspired

My friend Leslie wrote about guilt on her blog last week which got me to thinking about it. (Check her blog for neat inspirational thoughts/ideas.) Guilt is a very interesting creature. I have to say, there is not a lot I feel guilty about. Don't get me wrong, I have some guilt, but most of mine revolves around my children. I have a feeling that will not change anytime soon. The things I feel most guilty about is time when it comes to them. Do I think they are neglected - NO WAY! Let me tell you about something that happens to you when you have children (beside you not being able to fit into your old clothes) - all the sudden your brain and your heart no longer connect. You may know something in your head, but there is no way your heart will let you believe it for one minute.

Bottom line - I am going to attempt to live more guilt free when it comes to my children. I know in my head they are good and I am raising them the best I know how. This is my affirmation - at least till my heart says otherwise!! ;-)

Saturday, September 13, 2008


Yesterday my work had a booth at the Tour of Missouri. It was really hot and humid. It sucked. Jason brought the boys down and raced. Here is a picture of Brodie cheesing to the ladies I work with.

Monday, September 08, 2008


I thought weekends were suppose to be relaxing?!? By the time we grocery shop, clean and do laundry, the weekend is over! I hate that.

Other than that, I have nothing to post about. I am so boring. We did see one of our ex-babysitters at the mall yesterday. She looked great - even in a ball cap. Hate her! Someday, when I do not have a baby attached to me all the time, I am going to get back into shape. Until then, I will wear my fat pants I bought this weekend!!

Friday, September 05, 2008


Brodie was 12 weeks old Wednesday. No more sleeping through the night - bummer for me. Oh well, who needs sleep anyway? I guess I can do that later! He is holding his head up some. When he is on his belly, he holds his head up and even pushes up a bit. He may be up on all fours in no time! Funny, sometimes it feels like he has been here 2 minutes and other times it seems like he has been here 2 years. Weird how time does that.

Enjoy your Friday! The weekend should be wonderful!

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

If you read my blog this morning and a nasty video popped up in the David Lee Roth link - I AM SORRY! Thank heavens someone pointed it out! I obviously did not intentionally do it. Gotta love the web!!


While on my way home from work yesterday I was listening to the radio. They were playing two songs by the same artist - it was two for Tuesday or something like that. So I was stuck listening to a Van Halen song - the title escapes me now. It was an older one with David Lee Roth singing - you know, the REAL Van Halen days! Anyway, the second song was a newer one with what's his name - crappy Van Halen. My question to you - is it really a two for Tuesday when the singer is different? OK, I have now dated myself and talked about something that has no baring on anything for the rest of life. Enjoy!!

Go Ted!

Tuesday, September 02, 2008

When it rains it pours:

So usually we talk about this saying only when bad things happen, but in my case, it is good things. I am not sure it will last, but I will take what I can get - I guess!!

Dillon decided he no longer wants to wear diapers, so he is potty training and doing VERY well!! We'll see how it goes now that he is at school. He has had a few accidents over the weekend, but all in all, he has done a good job! I am very proud of him, especially since I thought he may have to go to school in diapers!

Brodie slept through the night last night. I put him to bed about 9:15 pm and did not stir until 5 am and then I got up and fed him about 5:15 am!! Unreal! I hope this continues, but I am not banking on it. Maybe I can keep up this nursing stuff a little longer if he will let me get some sleep. I have already made it a lot longer than I thought I would - almost 3 months! Yeah, Alicia!

Anyway, I hope you all (my two readers) had a good holiday!